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Just an ordinary day

It’s the end of the week already so fast! Didn’t do much this weekend…let’s start with sat? Training in the morning as usual! But there was one thing special about sat’s training. Neville did this visualization thing with us before we started trng. Basically, it was helping us go through what may occur on that day and mentally prepare us for what we will feel on 19th June. Wow, when he was doing the whole exercise, he kept asking us about our feelings. And my dominant feeling was fear and nervousness. I’m scared that I’ll make mistakes on that day and disappoint myself and everyone? But I guess that was kind of the point of the visualization thing? To prep us up so that we get scared and start to train harder so we don’t regret it on the actual day. And well, it kinda helped in focusing my thoughts during training that day let’s hope this feeling keeps up and I hope we can all do well and focus as a team! (:

Then comes Sunday-the lazy day. Haha I just kept eating bread the whole day! Idk why either! Did a lil of math tut 27 (which was incredibly mind boggling!) and also chem. But I got a headache soon after so I stopped doing work heehee watched star awards at night!!! So nice, but I thought Tay ping hui and Jeanette aw would win best actor and actress respectively ): oh weeeeell haha and I think the Taiwanese host li jing really very funny (Y) Elvin ng and zhao you ting both so cuuuute ^^

K there’s school tmr so I’m off to dreamland now night! (:

The blind side

I watched the blind side on my comp today! (: It was super good and totally worth that 2 hours heehee (Y) Loved the movie, it made me both laugh and cry so hard and gave me goosebumps~ too ahh! (: You can read the plot here (!!! spoiler alert hehe) Basically, it’s a true story about Michael, whose life was transformed when Leigh Anne took him into her family. She gave him a place to stay in, a home, a family and the care and love he should have received. A bond grew between him and the family, and it just got stronger and stronger each time! In the end, they adopted him and yeah, you can pretty much guess the ending from here (:

It’s one of those great movies I get so much motivation and inspiration from! (Hehe, I love love love family-oriented movies! They’re usually nice and you can relate to them well that’s why (Y)) Oh yes, there was this essay michael wrote about courage in the movie it goes like this: “Courage is a hard thing to figure. You can have courage based on a dumb idea or a mistake, but you are not supposed to question adults or your coach or your teacher. Because they make the rules. Maybe they know the best or maybe they don’t. It all depends on who you come and where they come from. Didn’t at least the six hundred guys think of giving up and joining with the other side. I mean The Valley Of Death! That’s pretty salty stuff. That’s why courage is tricky, should you always do what others tell you to do? Sometimes you might not even know why you do something. I mean any fool can have courage. But, honour, that’s the real reason you do something or you don’t. It’s who you are and maybe who you want to be. If you die trying for something important then you have both honour and courage and that’s pretty good. I think that’s what the writer was saying, that you should hope for courage and try for honour and maybe even pray that the people telling you what to do have some too.”

Pretty deep huh. Anyway, it made me ask myself what I wanted to be, and more importantly, WHO I want to be – what sort of person do others see me as? I always feel that I don’t have enough courage. Not enough to voice out what I truly think and do what I really want to do without hesitating. I envy those people who are so straightforward and always do what they like! Most of the time, we conform to what others want us to do. We don’t really dare to be different because we’re afraid – afraid of what others may think about us/our actions. But, in the movie, Mike had the courage to be different. He didn’t want to be like his friends in his hometown, to fall into bad company, deal with drugs and gang fights. So, he did what he had to do and didn’t succumb to the peer pressure upon him. He showed them that he could make it just because he wanted to be good. They didn’t always have to do what others thought they should. They could do what they liked, and be successful like him if they had the courage. More importantly, he knew that as he was doing it, his family would always look over him. They would ALWAYS have his back and he had theirs too. Whatever they did, they were doing it for the family and that’s what mattered most. Winning or losing isn’t important as long as you know the reason behind the hard work and effort you’re putting in. Hmm, I wonder when I can reach that stage but I’m working towards it (:

Ah, so many more things to say but I don’t know how to put them all down in words. It was amazing how such a small act on the part of Leigh Anne (who took M in) could make such a huge impact on his life! Ooh, another quote from the movie I just remembered!
Leigh Anne’s friends: I think what you are doing is so great, to open up your home to him. Honey you are changing that boy’s life
Leigh Anne: No,he is changing my life.
Everything we do has an impact on the life of others and our own. We should always be more sensiive to the feelings of others, care for them and keep spreading this spirit of love!!! ♥

Woohoo, this has been such a long reflective post! I haven’t felt like this in a long long time and it feels good to just pen (or type hahaha) down all my thoughts here. So hurry go watch this movie everyone!!!! I PROMISE YOU’LL LOVE IT (:

PS TGIF! The weekends are here at last!!!

If The Moon Fell Down Tonight

If only life was as simple and easy as in a fairytale! If only there will always be happy endings…

Feeling a-bit-the emo tonight! Need to find someone to rant to! HAHA

Today was CCA fair day for the J1′s! Didn’t really do much but I don’t know why I’m so exhausted eh :/ The good news, though, is that we got 59 people to sign up for lifeguards! Hopefully at least half of them will turn up for the welcome tea next thursday (: Ooh saw vic halfway and we took a picture with her velly cool camera! I wanna see the photo when it’s developed So fun! HAHA I want to get one too…one day heehee ^^

DE test was postponed to tmr! But honestly, I didn’t do much at all today! Just came home and then slacked ): Quite horrible but ugh haha oh ya today’s the last day of orientation in AC already (so quick!) it’s good to see most of the J1′s having fun though…I kinda miss orientation mood, just needing to bother about cheering and having fun! Haha!

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Talked to disneylove and ST about the issue!

To you:
Please understand that I did not choose to have it this way either! I reallyreallyreally don’t want to hurt anyone because I will really feel very bad and uneasy bout it :/ but it has to be done and it’s better if it’s done sooner than later, right? I don’t think I have the courage to do it actually…but after talking to disneylove, I hope I can do it and solve the issue quickly! I hope you won’t be too hurt by it and I’m really truly madly deeply sorry ):

2009: One of the best years of my life.

Honestly, this year has been my toughest but most fulfiling year ever. I can’t say the year has been all good – of course there were tough times and mistakes were made, but I dare say I’ve learned from these mistakes and they have become lessons. Lessons that have taught me so much about myself and others; lessons that I will remember for life.

Everything was so different from the moment the year started. I was no longer going to be in that school that sheltered me for the past 10 years of my life; the familiar culture, environment and friends that have accompanied me since I was 7 years old – they’re all gone. You wouldn’t understand it unless you’ve been through it. I was so lost the first day of school because everything was so different; so foreign to me. Orientation, new class, new friends, new cca…it all passed by so quickly. It took me a while but I finally adapted to the new school. Of couse I still miss mg, but if you ask me, I don’t regret choosing acjc because I’ve made so many new valuable friends and truly enjoyed my time there. I learned that once in a while, going out of my comfort zone will strengthen me instead, that I shouldn’t be so afraid because maybe I’m not as weak as I think I am.

I also opened myself up to a whole new world. It was one I have never seen before, never understood, never experienced. I did things I never imagined myself doing, made friends with people I never thought I would, gained so many new perspectives and of course, walked away with valuable life lessons. I truly believe that I will remember that experience forever. I’ve seen the different sides to the people around me. It made me realise how I’ve been oblivious towards so many things in life; and how fortunate and blessed I truly am – one thing I’ve taken for granted all this while.

A BIG thank you to all of you who have stood by me throughout the year, given me laughter and kept my spirits up! Thanks for tolerating all my nonsense (haha) and just being there when I needed you (: 2009′s over now. I’m sure I’m not the only one who feels it has passed by so quickly. But I guess it’s like what they always say – good times pass by quickly. I’ll miss this year for sure! But time doesn’t stop here! We have to move on to a new year, 2010. Everything starts all over again with a clean slate. It’ll be a new beginning, with new challenges to face, new lessons to be learnt….so I’ve made some resolutions before I start the year.
1) Never give up when I’m faced with difficulties
2) Remember how blessed I am
3) Don’t take things for granted (be more aware of the people around me)
4) STUDY HARD!!!! (2010′s gonna be another tough year and apparently the most important year of my life (with A’s and all))

So guys, here’s to the start of an awesome 2010 (:
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

New soul

Came back from camp 2 days ago! I miss camp so much, I’ve really learnt so much through this camp ): And at the end of the day, when you see how much effort everyone has put in, it just melts your heart and i think it’s really worth everything! The boys from ycon especially – they really changed so much during the camp! Not just one or two of them but ALL of them. This shows that there really is a nice person within everyone of them!

My group was awesome! Go spidey!! Diu diu piak (: Hahaha. Everyone was so supportive and helpful. You can just ask anyone of them for help at anytime! We had great leaders as well – Charlene and Jeslyn! They were always there to hype the group up with the cheers and encouragement and I’m very thankful to them (:

I miss everyone at camp (again…haha) Esp my bene. Although she may be physically disabled but you can really see how much energy she put in to complete and go through all the activites! I’m glad she had fun! I was especially amazed at her determination during the rock wall. Initially she didnt want to do it because she was scared. But we managed to persuade her. When I saw her climb up the rock wall with our support, I was touched. She had her difficulties but she didn’t think of giving up. When she fell down the first time, even though it was very hot and tiring for her, she said she wanted to try again. As she climbed higher and higher, I had this sudden realization that all of the benes at ycamp were very very brave. I’m not sure if I could be as brave as them if I were in their shoes. They are brave enough to face the world as themselves and they have not given up hope so if we feel that our own difficulties are hard to overcome, we should always think of them. If they can do it, so can we. At the end of the day, when she was about to go home, she cried and I felt so sad. After all, I’ve been taking care of her for the past 3 days and we went through everything together. She’s like a friend to me and when we parted, I couldn’t bear to leave her. I hope she’ll be able to take good care of herself next time (: It was her first camp, but she said that she would come back again

And yes, my buddy from ycon too! Initially, I was afriad he may not be able to open up because during ycon, we barely talked and most of the time during reflections, he wouldn’t have anything much to say and he would just reply with “dont know” or “nothing”! At first, I thought he was being difficult but now I realize that it is because he didn’t know how to phrase his words properly and sometimes, he doesn’t really understand the question either. During ycamp, I saw him participate so much more in the activities and during debriefs, he actually shared his feelings with the group and that meant so much more to me (and I hope to himself as well). I can tell that he actually put in effort to look after our bene and that was touching. He took the initiative to do most of the things like pushing the wheelchair, talking to the bene, serving food, cheering and so much more. I don’t really know how to say this but I hope I’ve helped him through the ycon sessions and ycamp!

I want to thank everyone else that participated in the camp as well. Because there is always something to learn from everybody else! Like their patience, helpfulness, initiative, enthusiasm, etc….But as long as I have done my best, even if it may not be enough, I hope I’ve made an impact on the people around me (:

Y Con has given me this opportunity to interact and help the boys. If not for Y Con, I wouldn’t have to chance to learn about what they have gone through and get to know them for who they truly are and just be their friends so they know that there are people out there who really care for them! (: I’m glad I signed up for it because I gained so much more out of the sessions than I ever expected!

2012

Caught 2012 yesterday with my brothers and mum. It was great! And the sound effects at cine is boomz! (: Hahahah we had sushi before that and I was so full. But, it was super satisfying since I’ve been craving it for over a month so yay! I bought my sister’s keeper too. I haven’t watched the movie yet so I just decided to buy the book first.

On a serious note, the movie set me thinking…like what if, just WHAT IF, the world really ended in 2012? I’m not saying I really 100% believe in the prophecy…but there’s always a possibility. What happens then? Does the whole world just get destroyed like that? Will it be like we never existed? What happens the the world then? So many questions left unanswered.

What the movie taught me was that we have to treasure the people around us, really. You never really know when we’ll be separated and when the world’s about to end, your family is really all you’ve got. I teared at the moment we were waiting for Jackson to come out of the pipe. It was quite intense.

Song of the day:

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I just realised the post was published on 11:11 hahahah yay

Holidays!

I’m thinking of getting a polaroid cam!! (: But i dont know if my mum will allow! Haha, and $$ is another problem!

So, OP IS OVER! Finally!! It was alright, actually. I’m glad my group managed to come through the whole project together and present everything successfully. After 1 year, we. are. officially. free. of. PW. And now it’s time to enjoy the holidays!

But there’s SO MANY things to do really ):
Ahh, there’s ogl interview next week on the 17th and i’m really scared! Heh, help me think of a short cheer!! But at least jasmine, vic and ivyna are in the same slot as me! (: Hope we all get through, and sher and rach too!

Heehee, last friday i went to the zoo with nicole and heidi! Cuz it was nic’s 17th birthday!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY NIC! 6 years of friendship…and counting! <3


Haha the zoo was fun! Nic got to get in free cuz it was her birthday, so luckyyyy. Heidi and I had to pay $18 ): HAHA
But ah wells, at least it was fun (: And i realised the zoo’s actually really big! Haha, we only managed to explore one part cuz it closed at 6; ooh and we bought a photo each from the zoo! Nice

Saturday was Ycon; last session before ycamp :’(
Ahh, it passed by SO SO QUICKLY! I really learnt a lot from it, and it changed my perceptions about certain things so I’m glad I signed up! I hope I’ve helped my buddy too and that he’s enjoyed the sessions as much (: Can’t wait to see everyone at Ycamp now!!

I’m so tired now, even though there’s nothing much to do! Haha. Oh, there’s apple crumble on the table eh! I’m gonna eat it! Hehe, ciao fellas (:

Plans to give you hope and a future

“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.”
- Jeremiah 29:11 (New International Version)

Give your burdens to the Lord, and he will take care of you. He will not permit the godly to slip and fall. – Psalms 55:22

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